Its Just ME ^^

2012-02-09T15:00:00.001+08:00

Attached or not, I am still by myself when you conveniently left me there

2012-02-02T13:41:00.001+08:00

为什么好像一切是我一厢情愿

2012-01-26T18:01:00.001+08:00

一味的付出，到最后苦的还是自己

简单可以吗？

2012-01-19T17:27:00.001+08:00

如果可以简单点就好了。
就像我只要相信你爱我就好了
就只要知道这点就好了...

2012-01-12T19:04:00.001+08:00

在人来人往的车站，让情绪沉淀，让眼泪流干
在吵杂的巴士上试图让不知如何形容的心情消失
故意让回家的旅途变得漫长
坏心情... 不好
怎么办？

q

2012-01-01T01:10:00.000+08:00

what have i done..
what have i done to make you blame yourself so much about it..

2011-12-22T04:01:00.001+08:00

我不知道我为什么会那么不安。
对不起...

Please..

2011-11-27T02:12:00.002+08:00

Dear Papa,
I sorry for being insensitive, please take care of yourself. I would very much like you to attend my graduation, watch me do you proud, hold my hand and hand it over to the other man at the end of the aisle, bring you overseas and enjoy life with your wife. Although you don't show it, but i know that you loved us more than anything else in the world.
I love you Papa, please be safe

2011-10-25T21:44:00.001+08:00

I really don't know what to do..
I don't know if I can pull it through
I get so affected by the things you say even though you might not even be referring to me

2011-10-19T00:27:00.001+08:00

I hope someone will notice that I buried myself with work so I don't have time to think
I hope someone would take the time to notice things I didn't say
I hope someone would care without me telling
I hope that there is someone who knows I'm in pain and still hurting, when I show a smiley face
But all I have every time is me under the sheets with a wet pillow

2011-10-09T18:06:00.001+08:00

不知道是不是看了橘子的书，整个人都无力起来。
我喜欢这本＂我想要的只是一个拥抱而已＂
因为我喜欢拥抱，不管抱人或被抱。感觉很好，很舒服。
里面的故事、人物、感觉，都让我觉得跟我很像。写到心坎里。
只是先是不是这样，因为他不是曹正彦，我不是小雨。他不会有曹正彦的幽默，成熟，心思细腻
我虽然像小雨胆子小，但我不像她可以那么简单，反而像曹正彦的自我保护，伪装。
或许如果可以像小雨那样，应该就不会这么累吧？

无奈。不知所措。

2011-09-17T02:42:00.002+08:00

无奈。
很无奈，非常的无奈。
感情，世人必有的
习惯，每个人都有
可当两者遇到时，这个人就完蛋了。

因为曾经太伤心，习惯了
所以现在好像感觉不到了

是这样吗？所以现在我只是坦然面对？
就像本来应该觉得心痛，想哭。
可是却一点这样的感觉都没有。
只有无奈。好像也只剩下无奈。

Damn my heart

2011-09-16T02:20:00.001+08:00

I just realized that if he really likes me, he would be texting me, checking up on me when I post upsetting status, calling me, chatting happily with me about anything, waking me up with morning calls, putting me to sleep with a sweet goodnight, caring if I had my proper meals, why am i losing appetite, asking me how's my day, sharing with me about his day, or what's been bothering him recently, wanting me to care, be jealous when I'm texting other guys. & he would have hold my hand that day.

just naive.. too naive

2011-09-08T21:45:00.000+08:00

I guess its just me, feeling everything.

I guess its just me, misunderstanding the texts as you missing me

I guess its just me, thinking all the hugging, patting and caring means something

I guess its just me, being too naive

Dear friend,

2011-09-03T02:16:00.001+08:00

I seriously don't understand wth is wrong, the way you speak of it sounds like its our fault, but its you who started it. You said you tried, yes we know. But have you even ever gave a thought that why we reacted the way we react? I am someone who treasures all my friends, i value them. because i know friends don't come easy for me.
you broke the bond, the material of this bond is not something, you say you've tried and tries to save it, and you can get it back together. no matter what you do the line is there, the fact that you hurt us won't change, and there is nothing that can change. people say, the higher you expect, the greater you fall. its the same for friendship, because you was so important, that when you did what you did, we were greatly hurt.
You once said that we think alike, but why cant you understand?
I value and cherish my friends. If i can go back to how it was then you should know that you are not important at all.
You say we don't give a fk about it, and we didn't say or talk about it, its not that we don't want to. Its because we DON'T KNOW how to. It maybe be easy for you to do all the damage and then come back and pretend nothing happened, but we can't. We can't at all. I thought you could understand, but apparently you can't.

Now i feel like this all started because of me. if it wasn't for me, you wouldn't have made friends with my friends, you wouldn't have cared, you wouldn't have done what you did. None of this would have happened. None of us would have gotten hurt, because it didn't started.

2011-08-28T02:14:00.001+08:00

Crying is suppose to release endorphins right? Why isn't it working?

2011-08-15T01:54:00.000+08:00

Its clear that I succeeded, live your life, you will feel better without me (:

2011-08-14T02:36:00.001+08:00

I only wished to be there when you have problems. But i know you will never come to me. Ever. Cos you are a dream. And dreams never come true.

2011-07-18T03:30:00.002+08:00

since when did our convesation are only left with school?

2011-07-01T02:24:00.000+08:00

YOU WILL NEVER EVER GET MY HEART. EVEN IF THERE'S NO ONE IN IT. NO WAY. NOT EVEN WHEN MIRICLES HAPPEN. .

What do you want?

2011-06-08T03:08:00.000+08:00

What do you want? Why is it that I dont't understand what you are trying to say? Are you an alien? By telling me all those what do you want me to do? Aren't I doing it already? You tell me to do what i'm doing and you say i am not doing anything?

It bothers me when I cant get things straight. I get all stress up because I dont know what you want. I dont understand. I dont understand at all. I'm confused. WHAT DO YOU EXACTLY WANT? Tell me. I don't like to guess.

Its like math question, how am i suppose to solve it when i dont even know what they want?

Give my some space to breath.

2011-05-16T01:23:00.000+08:00

Leave me alone, give me some space. I dont want to end up avoiding you. I know you meant well, i know you're worried. But this is too much, really too much. i dont want my every mood to affect you, I cant be sad around my friends becos i fear they would tell you and have you getting all worried. Dont make a big deal when i keep quiet. can't i have pms or simply dont feel like talking? you tell me to cheer up, but you're the reason why i can't.

If this is my fault, so be it. I'm sorry. I don't know how to handle, because I've never been through before. Maybe I chose the wrong words, maybe I didn't express myself clearly. I'm sorry. If i hurt you, I'm sorry. Tell me what to do. Be with you, when i don't like you? just let you be, and get all stressed up myself? What do you want? Tell me. Please.

2011-04-23T02:59:00.002+08:00

I cheer out loud, so i can lose my voice and forget about crying.

2011-04-14T01:39:00.000+08:00

我现在只想大哭一场。

I'm sorry

2011-04-01T02:39:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry. You've always been a friend to me.
There is no way i will ever have any romantic feelings for you.
You say you wouldn't mind, and enjoy liking me, because I'm able to make your day just by smiling.
I'm glad to know but at the same time it pressures me.
I fear that if one day, i broke your heart, or maybe I already did. It will never be back to the way it is like what happened to me.
I fear that you wouldn't be able to love again like I do.
I fear that what if one day I can no longer smile and make your day because my heart is broken once again with you being part of the reason.
I fear that if i were to see you i have to run away and avoid you no matter what happens.
Please don't say you love me. Let me be selfish for once. Just this once.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry to have been liking you on my own.
You have no idea how many times i have tried to tell you that i like you.
You have no idea how many times have tried to tell myself to stop there.
You have no idea how many times I tried to stop stealing glances at you because I know you would immediately turn away when our eyes met.
You have no idea how many times I've tried to talk to you but the conversation never last.
You have no idea how many crazy and stupid things I've done just to let you notice me.
You have no idea how many times the inner me have been resisting the thoughts of you.
You have no idea how painful my heart is when you do that.
You have no idea...
because I didn't tell you

2011-01-26T21:49:00.000+08:00

累，有时只是用来掩盖伤心的借口。
我不想爱，因为爱让人疲惫不堪。
我在爱里看不到幸福。

whinny whines alot

2011-01-12T22:11:00.000+08:00

I want to have someone to whine to..

had a sudden emotion breakdown yesterday, I hate it when i cannot control them.
& I think i screw up my presentation just now.

2010-12-26T23:01:00.000+08:00

哭有那么难吗?
我的答案是: 有

我很累.

2010-12-09T00:38:00.000+08:00

But is it wrong to keep things to myself so that no one gets hurt or worried?
I'm just a coward who doesn't dare to speak my mind.

问题. 白痴. 骗人.

2010-11-29T02:29:00.003+08:00

等了那么长的时间,重新拿起橘子的书.
阅读. 回想. 疑问. 答案.
笨.

为什么不狠你讨厌你,反而担心起来了.
你这样会幸福吗?
还是你只是想从她身上寻找安慰?
因为当你回头时, 我已经变了. 不再爱你了.
刚看到时,我还在想, 你就那点能耐吗?
当初你说会努力让我再爱上你, 可你不但什么都没做, 还爱上别人.
你的爱情就这么廉价吗? 就只有这样吗?

我不爽.
总觉得你又把我当白痴.
就有那么好糊弄吗? 骗我让你很有成就感吗?
有那么好骗吗?
骗我你很爽啊?

我不爽!
为什么明明就不信你说的, 明明就知道你骗我,
在真正确定后, 还会有那么复杂的情绪?
先是短暂的生气, 再来是失望, 然后失落, 担心, 不爽.

我很确定我不爱你了.
可是为什么还会着样呢?
可能是因为曾经很爱你.
太爱你了. 曾经.

My wavy hair!!

2010-10-14T01:24:00.000+08:00

I am totally in love with my hair right now. MUAHAHHAHAHA!!!
All i did was blow dry my hair with the hairdrier aft i bathed.

Crying

2010-10-08T01:16:00.000+08:00

I hate it when i feel like crying but tears just won't flow.
It seems like they dried up.
Someone, please make me cry so i can feel better.

My ego and pride gets in the way sometimes.

2010-09-29T02:29:00.000+08:00

I am fine with not knowing anything. Just don't tell me so i won't hate you. Hating is a tiring thing and i don't like it. So please. Don't make me do it.

2010-09-13T01:27:00.000+08:00

I wanna travel..To somewhere, no one knows me.
To a place where i can walk under the warm golden sunlight of spring with a slight touch of cold air in my face in a quiet field of baby's breath. No irritating people, no GPA, no stressful family members, no him, nothing. Just me and the field of flowers.
If only life could be this easy.

I wanna run. Run away. Away from the people of trouble, stress and irritation.
Just me into my world.

2010-08-26T02:37:00.000+08:00

GREAT! (in a scarcastic way)
I started to work again, Just when i thought i will be able to concentrate on my studies.
God, ploy is soooo tough. Screw those people who said poly is easy. the subject are soooo difficult T^T
So tired...So blue... So depressed... So stress... maybe i should go to school to study tomorrow.

2010-08-14T01:10:00.000+08:00

I want a hug, I want a smile, I want my heart back.

I don't want to be in love.
Its scary, Its painful.

Why do I always fall for the wrong person?
I better stop before I sink in further.

I will seriously go crazy, if past happens again.

2010-08-08T03:30:00.000+08:00

I realised that I am so good at crying quietly.

2010-07-27T20:54:00.000+08:00

I feel so stupid and helpless.

PAST memories, love, stupidity.

2010-07-12T00:18:00.001+08:00

Stop idiot.
Stop.
I can't.
ahh.. I get it. I'm plain stupid.
What an idiot.

Stupid me.

BLOODY WEEK

2010-06-26T01:51:00.002+08:00

This entire week is so damn bloody unlucky, except for monday.

Tuesday morning I almost couldn't wake up cos i forgot to set my alarm.
On the way to school, I lost my cardholder, with both my ez-link and matric card inside.
I tried to look for it so I walk back from the bus-stop to my doorstep 5 times, but still i couldn't find it.
Then I was late for lab for 30mins.
Because when i report lost of my ez-link, the person ask me to bring a passport size photo.
So i went to take a photo, 4 for $6.50, when I went to did my card the person said can use old photo.
So i wasted $6.50 ( I can have a good meal with that amount) & the new ez-link card cost $18

Wednesday, because i have a dinner at night with someone I feel uncomfortable with.
& I wore jeans which made me feel super uncomfortable the entire day cos of the rain.
After I endured it for the whole day,
Last mintue, My mama told me that the BLOODY dinner is POSTPONED to the next day.

Thursday, early in the morning during APEL, my dear cp showed us the term test results.
I FAILED 3 out of 4 core diploma subject.
2nd last in the class. I have never got such rotten results.
At night went to have dinner with uncomfortable person (up) and my parents.
& he totally made me feel disgusted because the way he touch me totally reminds me of **** ****
Which made me feel uncomfortable TOTALLY!

& above are only a small part of it there are soooooooo many other things.
If I were to write it all down, I don't know how long it will take.

OVERALL, THIS WEEK SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE THIS BLOODY WEEK!!!!!!

2010-06-17T02:18:00.001+08:00

There's been alot of "suddenly" lately.
Suddenly, I feel zero motivation.
Suddenly, I feel so tired.
Suddenly, I miss school.
Suddenly, I miss my friends.
Suddenly, I got Insomnia again.
Suddenly, I realised mama has not been able to cook dinner on weekdays for almost 6 months.
Suddenly, Papa's health is at a danger zone.
Suddenly, I gained fat but not weight.
Suddenly, I feel so disorientated.
Suddenly, I realised I haven't been eating properly.
Suddenly, My life is in a big mess.
Suddenly, so many things are happening to so many people around me.
Suddenly, I feel so lost.
Suddenly, I want a getaway trip
Suddenly, My instincts are getting scarily accurate.
Suddenly, I feel like i can feel ah piao again.
Suddenly, I am scared.
Suddenly, I feel like sitting by my window and see the world die away quietly.
Suddenly, I feel like going back to my own world and wait until I feel like coming out.
Suddenly, I.... I.... I.. have nothing more to say.

2010-06-03T03:02:00.003+08:00

ITS MY BIRTHDAY & my phone went crazy!!!!!!!!!
All the messages are gone.....
all the messages from the first time i used this phone is gone.....
WAHHHHHHHH~~
Worse of all, ALL MY BIRTHDAY WISHES ARE GONE~ T.T
DAMN IT! seriously not in good mood right now.....
tmr still got test, then this happen.....
DAMN!

I waited, but you left me disappointed.

2010-05-11T01:02:00.000+08:00

I was right to not trust you again.
At least it doesn't hurt that much,

2010-05-09T02:03:00.000+08:00

I am tired,
I am crazy,
I am hurting,.
I've changed, but was it the right thing to do?

I want to sleep.

2010-04-30T23:28:00.000+08:00

SCHOOL IS TOUGH!!!!!
2nd week of school, tutorials and lab sessions started.
& I wasn't allowed to go into the lab for the 1st lab session cos i forgot to wear long pants =.=

I HATE POP QUIZ!!!!!!
DAMN, those lecturer who talk like machine guns.
they talked so fast that i couldn't catch a single thing.
I mean I'm slow, so when they talk like machine guns it made me even more confused.
We have engineering maths which is also known as A-maths.
& I freakin cannot understand.

WAHHHHHH~
I really miss those secondary school days >
I am dead TIRED!
still have to work on weekends. T.T

2010-04-24T01:38:00.000+08:00

Its first week of school & I have soooooooo many things to say.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Many things!

But i lazy to put them all out, too many, plus i want to sleep.

ANYWAY, my class has a ratio of 8:17.

8 is the number of girls. YES, WE HAVE ALOT OF GUYS.

But they are all desperate for girls. Cos in ChE, we have very little girls.

Well, who cares anyway.

& it seems to be what I have predicted, is going to happen VERY soon.

Oh, before I forgot.

Miss goody has her limits too so you really wouldn't like it when you get on her nerves (:

Okay, thats it I NEED TO SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BTW, I still coughing.. T.T

HEATSTROKE? FLU?

2010-04-15T20:01:00.000+08:00

damn, I can't feel any strength right now.
My legs are all wobbly, and i just started coughing, and my head is splitting.
and my arm has 3 colours now. STUPID!
After Monday, the whitening i did during my holidays, all gone down the drain.
DAMN IT!

I think I am CRAZY!

2010-04-07T02:57:00.004+08:00

And, I have a "swollen" knee.
It always gives a cracking sound when I bend my knee
(my mama hates the sound she say it sounds like my bones are crumbling and breaking)
But, the problem is it doesn't hurt it you don't put pressure on it.
& my mama gives me 2 options
1. eat this chinese medicine which is in powder form.
Saying that it cures internal injuries.
2. go to the polyclinic and get the doctor to look at it which would most likely to refer me to a specialist in a hospital
And I want neither....

I envy those who dares say whatever they want to say.

Is it confidence or courage?

Well, regardless of which, I have neither.

I have been explaining things to myself to make myself feel better.

Oh, and remember me mentioning about
我的勇气和坚强掉了。- 2/6/09
I found it after I made my sudden disappearance in december last year.
But, you know what? I think I lost it again.
Hmmm... Shall I disappear once more??

2010-04-06T01:09:00.000+08:00

I SHALL NOT BOTHER MYSELF WITH QUESTIONS THAT NO ONE CAN ANSWER.

& I think tomorrow is not going to be a very nice day.

2010-04-02T02:00:00.001+08:00

I want to cut my hair together with my mama!

& she is only free on sundays!

BUT I AM WORKING ON SUNDAYS!!!!!!!!!!
& I SERIOUSLY HATE GOING TO THE SALON WITHOUT THE PRESENCE OF MY MAMA

Working on weekends = no more going out with my parents.

I'M GONNA CRY~ T.T

Okay I being like a kid here.
Wait. I AM still a kid!!

MESSY~

2010-03-31T01:40:00.001+08:00

Hmmmmmm....
I wonder.....
What if....
Maybe.....
WTH!!!
ARGHHH!! FORGET IT!!

If you wonder what those are, they are my thoughts for these few days.
AND they always end with WTH!! or FORGET IT!!

Wouldn't Life Be Easier If I Could Just Hate You?
Its all in a Mess.
In A BIG MESS

2010-03-29T00:37:00.001+08:00

AIGOOOO....
I am soooooooo tired!!!!!
I have been going out everyday for the past 1 week
and it left me with an empty wallet and exhausted body & brain.
Imagine,
On Monday, you go for chalet spent the night there unable to sleep well,
then play the whole of Tuesday,
Then when you got home on Tuesday night, you slept through from 2 to 11 plus
on Wednesday, then your friend ask you to go orchard, walk and reach home at dinner time.
on Thursday night your mama wants you to go surprise visit your god-father but end up being a waste cos he is not there.
Then Friday you go singing with your friends and school brillante in a pair of approx. 15 cm high heels,
and walk to have supper then walk home from the bus top 15 mins away from your house.
THEN, work an 8 hour afternoon shift for 2 days.

AFTER, a week of those you will be like me.
dead tired.
& my legs are giving way because of my job. T.T

Brain malfaction

2010-03-21T01:52:00.001+08:00

My BRAIN is not functioning properly!!!
It kinda malfunction while i was working just now.
So I kinda cannot concentrate and its like my vision blur-ed for a moment while shelving the books
then i get the dizzy spells while walking to the trolley o.o
and i the next thing i know i am spacing out and my heart beating real fast
& I have a shattering pain in my knee.><
I think something is wrong but i don't know what it is.
Hopefully i can still sleep, its afternoon shift tomorrow. :D

Oh and a customer I served just now remembers my name. ^^

FEAR!!!

2010-03-16T01:49:00.000+08:00

I am currently afraid of my phone ringing.
Someone who i don't like to talk to has been calling.
And the calls make me feel lost.

Just finished watching 2AM's new mv for 'I was wrong' & OMG!
They look sooooooooo COOL!!!!
Especially kwonnie, he looks so damn cool, a very different image he has on WGM together with Ga-in
& Changmin still mesmerise me with his unique voice.
Jinwoonie is still very attractive with his smiley eyes, although he doesn't smile much in this mv.
Seulong looks very cool on the bike.
You should take a look, it would be better if the english subbed version is out but for now this is what i can find.

2010-03-13T01:39:00.000+08:00

I am freakin tired.
AND my 'good friend' came today
so i am feeling FREAKIN uncomfortable.
Therefore i won't be expecting a smooth day tomorrow at work.
But fortunately i will be working afternoon shift, meaning i get to sleep more.

Mama and papa are out of town so tt means i have nobody to whine to when i get home aft work
Which is going to be not so good, cos i realised how attached i am to them.
I am MISSING them already.

Well, anyway I DON 'T FEEL WELL, and i want to sleep.

2010-03-10T03:46:00.002+08:00

WAHHHHHH!
THE AIR STINKS!!!!!
The air smells burnt & it STINKS!!!

I seriously hate the weather these days.
Its dry, hot, scorching but most importantly it STINKS!
I am even trying everything i can to avoid the sun.
I draw the curtains, avoid sitting near the window cos i can feel the heat

This morning my mama told me to help her buy goldfish
since her goldfishes have been dying frequently recently.
& frequently as in like I just went last week to buy her 4 goldfishes,
& i went again today to buy 2.
But worst above all, knowing how much i hate the afternoon sun,
She asked me to go in the afternoon, saying that i need to go in the sun to get vitamins.
But like I care, I am not going to risk going into the skin-destroying UV rays just to get her those goldfishes.
So i went in the evening. ^^

I am seeing lightning and hearing thunder since 3am
so it better rain before I go insane because of the smell.

Oh, and I am into braids recently. :D
PS: Remember to drink more water people! The weather is dehydrating us!!

2010-03-08T16:41:00.000+08:00

I am getting muscle aches on every monday.
Cos of my job. Think my legs will get thinner by the end of 6 months.
Its good exercise with pay.

Oh, and I went to look at the pictures cass told me yesterday when
we had dinner together,
I was in total SHOCK!

& I think should starve myself tonight and tomorrow morning.
I ate too much...

2010-03-02T13:30:00.003+08:00

DON'T YOU JUST HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE TOUCH/TAKE/MOVE/CHANGE YOUR THINGS WITHOUT TELLING YOU, ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU CANT FIND IT WHEN YOU NEED IT AND REALISED THAT ITS WITH SOMEONE ELSE?

TIRED

2010-02-28T00:35:00.000+08:00

First day of work and its not very smooth,
The only thing i can handle well now
is only the shrink machine.
Its a machine the wrap the books and shirk the plastic the fit the books
And I am really bad at shelving the books.
Basically I don't know which titles go where and i think i directed customer
to the wrong place when they came to ask for directions.
There are so many things to remember!!!
Like where which book are & you the Kinokuniya in Ngee Ann City
is BIG, it occupies half of the 3rd floor in tower B.
and my legs are tired from all the squatting.

HIRED!!

2010-02-24T20:28:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA!
I am not jobless for the next 6 months!!!
I am working as a part-time bookstore assistant in KINOKUNIYA on the weekends
Attended the company's new employee orientation since early in the morning today
it started at 9 and ended at 6
Its a little boring but since i still get paid so never mind ^^
Oh and the medical centre is very efficient
I just did my check-up yesterday, and my medical report are done already.
I am nervous about the new job hopefully my trainer would be someone
nice and easy to approach.

PLEASE!!!!

IRRITATED!!!!

2010-02-21T02:42:00.001+08:00

GOD DAMN IT!
WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS LIKE THAT?CANT YOU JUST BE A F***ING LITTLE BIT MORE CONSIDERATE!
We are SHARING a room.
IT DOESN'T BELONG TO YOU.
DAMN!!!!!!!!!!

2010-02-14T06:54:00.000+08:00

Oh GOD!
My eyes hurts, my finger hurts, my ears hurts, my head hurts.
My eyes hurts because I watched 2 movies straight, the 2nd movie i cried...
My ears because of the ear piece i wear while watching the movies
My finger cos i cut my finger while opening a can on new year's eve, the cut is BIG.

My Head because i knocked into a tap 2 days ago and my head bled

So I am spending a new year with wounds :(
But good thing now is that i can sleep!
I am SOOOOOOO TIRED!

2010-02-10T03:41:00.000+08:00

They say the best thing that women enjoy is SHOPPING! ^^
& I couldn't agree more than anything else.
I went shopping with my sister at bugis today and
this is the very first day in my life that i had bought sooooo many things in one go.
We spend like almost 400 bucks, so its an ave. of 200 each

So if i were to include the clothes i bought in china and what i bought today,
I have a recycle bag full of clothes. My area in the closet and drawer are full
so i have put my new clothes in a recycle bag.

and if you wonder why i can go shopping when i am broke,
cos the money in on loan from my sister, which only meant that my debt has gone bigger.

alright i have to go to bed now, it will be another early day tomorrow.
AND my aunt is coming back this SATURDAY!!!

2010-02-06T02:47:00.000+08:00

I AM BORED BORED BORED~
but going to be busy T.T

there are alot of things on mind....
wahhhhhhhh i hate it when its like tt
SHOO!!!!

mind exhausting...
gonna cry T.T

2010-01-25T02:05:00.000+08:00

BYE BYE to my waist length hair!
I cut my hair~

2010-01-17T01:00:00.000+08:00

Life sucks!
I don't like to stay at home.

2010-01-12T14:21:00.001+08:00

AHHHHHH~
the choices are making me crazy....
Headache.....
I WONDER HOW~ I WONDER WHY~

I want go tp...

& i am quite pissed off cos someone treated me like a fool.
you better stop before i break off all ties with you.

2010-01-07T00:43:00.001+08:00

okay there is soo much things i want to post but it will be very long
so i the near future i will post them one by one (i guess) :S
Chirstmas, and new year cum mabel's belated birthday celebration with my LOVELIES!
the pictures for chirstmas can be found in face book
under the photo album by the name of MADGIRLS4EVA.

Well. I think its alittle too late for new year resolution, but this is what i made when celebrating with my LOVELIES. & "CHANGE" that is.
It was alot of fun when we get together, cos we laugh alot and forget everything and just laugh and enjoy.
the time spent was GREAT!!!
But now after know some crappy things i feel the load of crap.
urghhhhhhhhhh.... i hate this feeling..

Plus the weird dream i had last night.
creepy.. ah piao was attempting to murder me by trying to throw me out of the window while i faked coma.
But however ah piao didnt managed cos it couldn't manage to carry me cos i am too heavy for it.
then i woke up sweating. not because i got cold sweat. but because the room was too warm as my parents off the air con before the went out and not opening the door and window.
eventually it let me to a conclusion whereby as ah piao didn't successfully kill me in my dreams, my parents intend to suffocate me by forgetting to leave the door open and open the windows. T.T

Hence, my life now is miserable as i am JOBLESS, BROKE, with CRAPPY feelings. *sigh*
but Jo kwon and Ga in, a couple in "We got married" (a korean variety show where celebrities have virtual marriages) they simply make my day. They are soooooo cute, & they look good with each other.^^

2009-12-08T02:57:00.002+08:00

I want to disappear...

2009-11-29T21:04:00.001+08:00

Went for 6/9 04' gathering yesterday
and it was FUN!!!
got to see my primary school classmates.
Some couldn't make it so only 12 of us turned up.
Annabel, Jia xin, Emily, Li Juan, Xinhua, Lizhong, me
Jian Hao, Dunstan, Yuan Jian, Aylwin, Jaf Zel
Alot of them changed, in fact all of us changed.
When I first see some of them i couldn't remember some of their names
only recalled it after hearing it.
We met up at bugis, had dinner at iluma and went to a pub in haji lane.
Called All about Eve met this guy named Remmi and he sings very well.
Jaf had a few shots of pure vodka cause he lost the game
and ended up drunk with Dunstan.
But still they managed to get back, we all had fun.
Everyone changed and we are all matured.
It was fun meeting with them. and it seems that we are going to have a chalet soon.

2009-11-20T17:42:00.002+08:00

I AM BORED!!!!!
its all over ain't it?

2009-11-12T01:53:00.000+08:00

Finished my last 'O' level paper today.
Feels weird, i am not excited about the hoildays.
I just feel like sleeping.
Although i am always sleepy, but this time i am really exhausted.
When to jack's place to have lunch with huixian, mummy, anting and diana.
the food is bigger than what we ate the previously.
Skipped dinner, caused too full to eat.

Well, i feel abnormal these days.
not feeling quite right.
Anyway, its the beginning of the holiday,
I've got tons of things waiting for me to do.
Got to meet up with friends, class chalet, interviews,
cut my hair, organize my photo album,
finish reading the book i started ages ago which was forced to stop because of the exams
Starting with lunch gathering with my tuition teacher and tuition-mates.
So i am going to be damn busy, and seriously broke.
HEAVY HEAVY HEAVY...
feeling heavy, wonder whats making me feel so heavy...

2009-10-04T09:56:00.000+08:00

Celebrated VIVIAN'S birthday on thursday.
went to her house to have dinner,
did my homework,
watch Fann and Christoper get married
FANN IS SUPER BEAUTIFUL!!!
Cut cake, then went home at around 10 plus 11

Skipped Saturday programme yesterday
couldn't wake up in time.
had dinner with my aunt at Thiong Bahru on Friday so went home late.
So had tuition at 1145 then met Michelle, Cassini, Hwee san for lunch
went Michelle's house to study aft that.
Then we went to buy some candles, sparkles and lantern to play.
but we ended up burning whatever we can find, box, lantern.
After that went to my grandma's for 2nd round
played the candles, my uncle found some container
we melt the wax and started burning.
Went home at around 12 plus
&
I AM SO FREAKING TIRED!!!
woke up at 6 this morning
gotta go to the airport to send off my aunt who came back
like 2 weeks ago,
but the problem is i slept at around 3 last night!!
I slept late not because i was enjoying myself
its because yesterday during the day,
some idiotic crazy neighbour was drilling whaterever they are drilling
from morning till evening.
then my sister who was sleeping till 3 ( i wonder how she sleep with all that noise)
woke up and found my study room covered with DUST!
everything was covered with this very fine sand, my computer, my books, my chair, my table.
So i had to clean up after i came back.
got to wipe, dust, vacuum, then wipe again
then by the time i finish its like 2 plus,
then have to take a shower, unpack my stuff then i can go to bed.
By the time i lie on my bed, i think i slept almost instantly.
Okay going to end here, i need to go catch up some sleep.
*YAWN*
Pictures will be posted when i get them from Michelle.
But most will be on Facebook.

他是我不想承认的存在，
却，
也是我无法否认的存在。

2009-09-20T21:56:00.003+08:00

My prelims results were out
and i did really bad, my L1R4 is more than 20
Passed my english though, but the rest is a little disappointing except for maths.
My parents are out of town for 5 days
I AM GONNA MISS THEM LOTS!
Its been the 3 of us at home since yesterday..
I don't like that feeling when they left.
My sister said its because we are too used of having them around.
Well, maybe.
But i am seriously not in a very good mood,
I mean i have this weird feeling that i hate it.
& obviously i am bothered by that feeling.
it feels kind of lonely, and i hate loneliness.
I feel so stupid....idiot.

Coffee Bean @ EXPO is gonna be the new place to study.
so BYE bedok mac.
& I am soo gonna finish my homework.
oh and also
masked people are everywhere, its a FACT so face it.

2009-08-28T21:08:00.003+08:00

I AM A LITTLE SENTIMENTAL TODAY.
Today stayed at home for the whole day.
cos got no paper.
I wonder how my friends are doing for today's MT prelim?
Hope they did well (:
WELL, abt why i said i am sentimental, its because many things that happened recently.
They made me think about many things.
THEN, they made me envy of everyone else.
& they made me feel a cocktail of feelings.

COCKTAIL OF FEELINGS
Ingredients:
half a cup of confused,
2 big spoonful of lost,
1 droplet of anger,
1 teaspoon of madness,
3 cups of tears.

Directions:
Pour everything into a blender and MIX them at high speed.
Chill them for 6 hours in the fridge
Ready to use after that.

PS: use small amounts at a time. Overdose could cause death.

Here i have a question for you.
When you know someone, and you assume that you know the person.
DO YOU THINK YOU REALLY DO?

没有人会是他们表面上看起来的样子，
但这事往往都不会有人发现。
是谁说，多面人就不是好人。
是谁说，他让你看到的他就是真正的他。
当你说你了解一个人，麻烦你再仔细想想，你真的了解吗？

还有
橘子说：
爱情里最残忍的暧昧，
是我明明知道我爱你，
而我们却只是好朋友

友情里最自私的胆怯，
是你明明知道你爱我，
而你还假装只是朋友。

不是时时刻刻，但难免有时刻
我们望着镜子，
问着自己
孤孤单单的我们，
真还能再有被爱的机会吗？

Is there really another chance for love?

2009-08-08T00:35:00.003+08:00

I AM SOOOOOOOOOO BUSY!!!!
I am starting my studying already,
so anyone if you feel like studying,
go ahead and ask me.

STUPID!
so many things to do...
haiz...
I AM SOOOOOOOOOO TIRED!!!!
&
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIXIAN! ^^

2009-07-21T23:07:00.003+08:00

I am here for the sake of updating and complaining
The mood now is negative.
I am SOOOOOOOO tired lately.
I hate it.

Well, time flies, one moment i am still
wasting time during the December holidays,
but the next i am sitting for my MT listening exam tomorrow.
STUPID.

I hate to admit but i am really slacking off.
Its like at home mum asking me not to stress up too much,
but in school the teacher is telling us to wake up its time for exam.
SERIOUSLY speaking , I am so not prepared to take the exam.
I cannot get that stupid vectors right, never understood
what my POA teacher is talking about,
& I can never keep myself awake for lessons in school.

I know that sleeping/dozing off in class is my problem
and it has always been.
I just cant help it no matter how long i sleep, i just feel tired.
Trust me i tried every single way to keep myself awake.
My system is immune to caffeine so coffee and tea doesn't work,
drinking water helps a little but doesn't last long,
taking meds they simply don't work, cod's liver fish oil doesn't work as it seems to be.
My friend check on me very frequently just in case i doze off.
I kept forgetting things like date, homework, test.
Nothing gets inside.

Maybe my studies isn't as bad as i think it is.
But its just the thing up there.
Maybe i think too much, maybe i have too many free time for my mind to wander off.
I was taught not to blame things on others because if anything goes wrong
it must be something i did that is wrong that leads to that.

School is tiring, its a madness, its a war.
you wear a heavy armor to school and still cant take it off at home.
War with the books, the papers, the people, the teachers, the not dozing off, everything.

Okay enough of the complaining.
I have to get back to my studies, even though i can't do it at home.
Have to its common test tomorrow.
So i will end my whining here, hopefully the mood will be better the next time i post.

PS: I just realised that its been a month since i last posted.

2009-06-12T21:31:00.027+08:00

HEY!
Finally the june extended programme has ended
i celebrated my birthday with different people,
& Cassini's birthday with the usual ones but more people this time.
OKAY! First i Thank all those who wished me HAPPY BIRTHDAY in whatever form,
and the ones who gave me presents.
I hereby give you a BIG HUG, & a BIG THANK YOU!
then i will let the pictures do the talking(:
but there will be too many to post so i won't be posting all & if you would like to
have a look at all the pictures,
you may go to Cassini, Mabel's blog or facebook to have a look(:

Okay~ thats all the pictures quite alot that is.
BYE BYE~ (:

2009-05-31T17:49:00.008+08:00

I was looking for some music video by TVXQ
and I came to this video.
They were in a show with this trio Yazima beauty salon
and its damn funny.
I laugh until stomach pain. XDDDDDD
This trio is made up of 3 men cross-dressing as women.
here are some pictures of them.

The one with the afro is Strawberry.cameila.yazima(11 yrs old)
The blond one is Naomi.Camelia.Yazima(17 yrs old)
& he doesn't look like a man at all.
The one in the middle is Margrate.Camelia.Yazima (36 yrs old)
here is the video and you will know what i mean.

PS: Strawberry didn't shave his armpit so it will be a little over.

2009-05-25T20:53:00.002+08:00

starting today MT intensive starts
and lessons from morning till 4pm
but the long hours is not the problem.
the problem is to face the same teacher the entire day.
haiz...
I am dieing of exhaustion already....
Some times i wonder is this really helping??

不等待，不期待，
也许就不会有伤害吧。

2009-05-23T23:16:00.003+08:00

I realised something
I have been STUPIDLY waiting
& expecting things that i know will never ever happen
They will NOT happen,
and i am waiting and expecting it to happen.
I waited like a fool, being naive thinking
that there might still be the slightest chance for it to happen.
I am so stupid!
OH GOD DAMN IT!
I am SO ANGRY with myself.

I'm so tired...
私は疲れている，本当に疲れている...
私は待つことを望みません，将来を考えることを望みません...

2009-05-20T18:11:00.002+08:00

YOHOHOHOHO~
i am sooooooo lazy right now
okay ermm.....
So many things happened and i don't know where to start
1. I flunk my MYE
2. MT intensive starts today
3. I bought 5 albums with my sis last Sunday
4. I broke my record of sitting in mac alone studying. (6hrs)
5. There is June extended programme for the first 2 weeks of holiday
6. Mock science practical exam on my birthday, last shift.
7. I finally finished buying san's present, all its left is to give her.
8. I am in deep trouble if i don't get distinction for MT 'O' level
9. I need to take physics retest
10. I need to start practicing radian.
11. Exam is coming and i don't think i am ready for it.
12. I have totally no idea which course to go if i get into poly

okay its all in points like summary
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Alright I am MAD, MENTAL, EMOTIONAL, STRESSED!!!
right now my head is going to explode if this continues!!!

2009-05-03T01:15:00.002+08:00

HEY~
ただいま! ^^
[I'm back!]

I went to cass's house straight after tuition today.
Why? Of course its because i MISSSSS her!! ><
OOPS! she is so gonna kill me :X
anyway i went to look for her.
slacked there.
& if you wonder why do i have the time to go there
during exam period.
I just felt like going :D
I stayed there for like more than half a day
reached there at around 2
and went home at around 10.
okay its less then half a day. Nvm
And yes I am MENTAL Now
okay if i don't end here i will go even worse.
so BYE BYE~
またね~

どうして?　
どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう?
私の心傷.
私の中心に入って来てはいけない。
私があなとを愛するとき，私はそれが嫌いである
来ないで。

2009-04-24T19:17:00.003+08:00

HOHOHOHO~
I am back.
Today alot of things happened.
1st: I got no money to take bus to school
2nd: only got $3 for the whole day
3rd: i forgot that i have to clear my table by monday
4th:mid- year MT oral, totally flunk it.
5th:my bag is SUPER HEAVY because of the books
6th: went to eat with friends but no money take bus paid $1 for the bus fare
7th: have to let people treat me for lunch
8th: my sister just reminded me that i owe her $120
9th: I am totally BROKE!!
okay isn't my life just pathetic??

got night study programme for the past 3 days
i only got home at 9.30><
had fun but its not helping my studies at all.
cause all we did is talk, sing, disturb people and make new friends.

then went to buy books today with my sister
went to find her after her work
bought 7 books and i am crazy about those books right now.
i want to read them!!!
My books can only be found at Kinokuniya
so we went to the one in Liang's court.
reached home at 10
and now i am trying to finish my homework.
so say good luck to me(:

私はあなたを憎みます、しかしそれでも私はあなたを愛します
あなたは知っているか？

2009-04-10T00:59:00.003+08:00

Hey people!
I am Back~
okay i am a little emotional these days
and i have serious mood swing recently too
so i went to play my collection of instrumental music
and i still love YIRUMA the best!!! ><

He is the best pianist i have seen so far
he play really beautiful piano pieces
So soft, so clam, so touching, so BEAUTIFUL!
okay i really need to clam myself down
and i really hate to be emotional.

These days i started thinking.
If i have to lose one of my ability, what would it be?
Voice, sight, hearing?
I've got myself an answer.
I would rather be mute than anything else.
But then i got another question coming.
If i lose my ability to talk, then i wouldn't be able to sing?
If i can't sing then whats the point?
But sometimes if i can choose to temporarily lose one of the 5,
it would be good.

If i lose my sight, I would be able to not see what i don't want to see
but i would not be able to see what i want.
If i lose my hearing, I would be able to not hear what i don't what to,
but i will not be able to listen to my favorite music.
If i lose my ability to speak, i won't have to say unnecessary things
and make others unhappy, but i won't be able to sing.
Sometimes i envy those who are a little silly.
because they don't know whats going on around them, they are happy.
sometimes i want to run.
Run away from this world this ugly, pitiful world.
I wonder how nice it would be if there is nothing but happiness in the world.
How nice would it be?

My heart hurts because of you.

2009-03-28T22:56:00.002+08:00

HELLO people~
I'm BACK~
Got no tuition today!!!
YEAH!! A free Saturday ^^
Haiz i am really crazy le lah..

slept till 9 in the morning today..
hahahaha 8 full hours of sleep!!! xD
and i manage to download the songs i want
this morning since my internet is down last night
then cannot use no choice have to go sleep.
lucky today my internet okay le..
found some very nice songs in jolin's new ablum
and some from A-lin and Alica Keys.
& i am now ADDICTED to THEM!!! ><

okay i will end here cause i am getting crazier already.
anyway for my life, its just nothing much other then
study, study, study
Okay thats all
BYE people~ :D

2009-03-02T21:53:00.003+08:00

HELLO~
i know i haven been blogging.
thats because i am busy and lazy.
ironic right.
How can a busy person have the time to be lazy?
well i don't know.
I only know that weekends are for me to laze around

Impact has come rather frequently these days.
There will be too many to name them out
one of them is that I flung my tests.
thats the greatest of all
terrible!
I have no idea what happened.
My mind just went entirely blank when i see the test paper.
But you know what this is not going to happen again.
I just hate it when it happens & it makes me miserable
even though its for a short while.
But it still feels terrible.
makes me feel lousy.

Waaa! i hate my life currently.
Pressure come on a daily basis
And I HATE PRESSURE!!!!!
why can't life be easier?

2009-02-06T16:17:00.002+08:00

I am doubtful.
I am confused.
People are struggling, so am i.
I think i lost them.
The courage to continue
Have I made the correct choice?
Is this really the correct thing to do?
I am doubtful of my choice.
I am confused.
I lost it, I lost my courage.

I am not strong.
I am not a superhuman.
I have times where i need someone to lean on to
I may be independent but i will still feel lonely
I lost it. Can you help me find them?

我的勇气和坚强掉了。
你可以帮我找吗？

2009-01-28T17:38:00.002+08:00

Hello~
i am back!!
okay erm.. i think i have lost touch
with the blogging thing cause its almost a month
i have last posted.
okay i will start from the eve of chinese new year

went to grand's to have reunion dinner
but this time no steamboat.
afther that we went home this year
my family didnt go to chinatown
cause my mama say she not feeling well
so she want to go home.
reached home then bath and pack my things
then me and my jie jie started movie marathon
we were in the kitchen baking cookies and watching movie at the same time
we baked 4 kinds of cookies cereal, chocolate chip, butter and almond
then we watched 4 movies straight.
we watched "Get Smart", "Angus,Thongs and Perfect Snogging",
"Maid of Honour" and " Night in the Museum"
we slept at 10 in the morning.

i woke up at 1 after that slacked at home for a little then went
to my grands to collect ang baos.
been a good girl this year i didnt gamble this time
then went home at 11+
i slept at 12 plus
woke up at around 12.30 the next day
then stayed at home for the whole day.

then today,
back to school. terrible time
cause i got running nose and sore throat
and i hate sore throat!! used 2 1/2 packet of tissue
& Thank You to mummy, ming hui, ze hui and stephanie
for lending me the tissues
and i want to say sorry to ze hui cause she need tissue too
but i took some from her.
and now my nose is dropping already!!!
i need to go and finish up my homework now.
so BYE BYE~

2009-01-01T23:58:00.005+08:00

HELLO!
Actually wanted to post about mabel's birthday
but i was busy clearing my room
so no time.
Please refer to Mabel's blog if you want
to know what happened. (:

Its Back to school tomorrow!
it feels weird
& i seriously don't like about the waking up early part
in fact I HATE IT!
but if i don't do so i will be late for school.
So i will just have to do it.
Okay have to stop.
need to go to bed.
Its a beginning of a BRAND NEW YEAR!
So its goodbye sec 4
& HELLO sec 5!
BYE BYE~

I am gonna miss the days in school with you guys.
Take care alright.
I LOVE YOU ALL!

2008-12-31T00:35:00.003+08:00

HI people!
okay i came to update a little.

okay lets start from Christmas eve
This years christmas eve is the best i had so far.
Cos i went celebrating and count down
at orchard with the usuals.
And you know what. Its FUN!!
well of course that limits to the celebrating and count down part.
Went to catch a movie aft that.
which i wouldn't want to talk about.
so we just stayed out the whole night
and went home in the morning.
[ for further details and pictures, please refer to mabel's blog]

and then Christmas!
I slept at 7+ and was forced to wake up at 1+
cos i have to prepare things for the family gathering later.
spent hours doing cos its only me and my sister.
& i was super tired so i was moving slowly.
then went to my uncle's house with the food prepared.
went there waited awhile, and started eating.
Had turkey, potato, salad and fruits.
This years turkey is BIG couldn't finish
but its rather will cooked.
went home aft the eating and stuff.

then i will skip somethings in between.
and its MONDAY~
went out with cass, mabel, san and mich.
why? cos we've got mich's present to buy.
went bugis street, then mich choose here and there
finally settled with the bags.
aft that we went to starbucks
Cass, Mabel and mich drank mocha Frappe
Me and san just sat there and space out.
aft that mich went to expo
and the rest followed me and cass to get our pay.
FINALLY my long awaited pay!
then went to tm ip zone to find vivian
and cass bought a jacket over there and mabel bought shirts.
dinner-ed then we bused home seprately
vian went to cass house to stay
then me, san and mabel bused home
reached home i started doing mabel's present.
stick the sheep to the music box with PVC gule
and wrapped it up nicely.

then its today!
MABEL'S BIRTHDAY!!
HAPPY SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY MABEL!!
I will leave the celebration details to later
cos it will be damn long if i post it now.
so wait for it cos its interesting. xDDD
& for now i will stop here.
so BYE BYE~

2008-12-22T00:15:00.003+08:00

HELLOS~
wanted to blog about what happened
but i feel very tired suddenly
so its going to be a short post
My results are rather good
so i get to go to sec 5.
Have been waking up real early these days
and i am super tired
energy level = 0

okay time for bed.
& one last thing
I MISS LONDON~

2008-12-06T03:36:00.002+08:00

HEY!
another sleepless night!
Its been hard to fall asleep lately..
thats why i am here to post
its 3:36am now.
& i still cant sleep!
faster faster congratulate me.
Dun ask me why.
i just simply cant sleep...
i think is because of the frappe just now
its coffee you see...
i drank that at around 7++
that maybe the cause of me not feeling sleepy
& this oso proves that caffeine is still useful to me

fish & co. is my dinner
cos my aunt treat me
we went to the one at park mall..
got LIVE BAND! but damn loud lar
i like the atmosphere there.

I want a JOB!!!
but i think i won't be able to find 1
so THANK YOU anyone tell me
if you know any place that is hiring alright?
THANK YOU VERI MUCH!

3:45 and i am still not sleepy..
Hiaz....

2008-12-04T02:01:00.003+08:00

finished watching koizora [drama version]
today. & yes i cried again..
but not like what i did when i watched the movie
not that bad but somewhere around there.
i was terribly touched by the story.
and i fell in love with the song. :D
the song very nice it fits the drama very well..
I STILL LOVE JAPANESE DRAMA!!!!

below is the lyrics of the song have a look~ (:
Ai No Uta
Yasashii kaze ga fuku itsumo no michi de
Anata ni aeru toka sonna koto de ii
Chiisa na kodou no yure ga omoi ni kasanari
Shizuka ni tokeru no wo tada matte iru
Hito wa doushite kotae wo motomeru no?
Watashi wa kore de shiawase nano ni shiawase nano ni

Ai no uta ga kikoetanda
Sore wa chiisa na ai ga
Hohoemu youni yori sou youna
Yasashii oto ga shita
Toki wa nagare yume wa nagare
Ironna katachi kawattemo
Anata ga tada koko ni ireba sore dake de ii

Anata no yobu koe ni kidzuku toki ni wa
Ushi tamono ni tada te wo nobasu dake
Toki wa doushite owari wo tsugeru no?
Egaita ima wa ashita no sora ni tsudzuite iru no ni

Ai no uta ga kikoetanda
Sore wa chiisa na ai ga
Hitotsu hitotsu matataku youna
Itoshii oto ga shita
Toki to tomoni ano nichi no hoshi
Namida de nagare te shimatte mo
Anata ga tada koko ni ireba sore dake de ii

Negai wa tokini tooku
Muri ni tsukamo utoshitemo
Te moto o suri nuke te yuku kedo
Sono mama kie te yuku youna
Ooki namonoyori
Chiisa na ai ni kidu keba

Itsuka toki ga hana o saka shi
Yagate ooki na ai ga
Utau youni kanade ru youni
Futari o tsutsumu darou

Ai no uta ga ki koe tanda
Sore wa chiisa na ai ga
Hohoemu youni yori sou youna
Yasashii oto gashita
Toki wa nagare yume wa nagare
Ironnakatachi kawa ttemo
Anata ga tada koko ni ireba sore dakede ii
Anata ga ite soba de warau sore dakede ii

Translation:
Song of Love
The gentle wind always blows on the same road
I want to meet you, but is it possible for such a thing
There’s small heart beats our feelings will overlap
Just waiting for them to dissolve gently into each other

Why do people want answers?
I’m happy, but what is happiness

Can you hear the Song of Love
It’s a small love
In order to smile, it seems we’re drawn close
By your kind voice
Time flows, dreams flow
They change various shapes
It’ll be fine, right here with you

You become aware of the voice that you’re calling
I reach my hand out to the things I lost

Why does this mark the end of time?
But I still continue to follow the sky of tomorrow

Can you hear the Song of Love
It’s a small love
Winking one by one
The sound is dear
During that day with the stars
Tears flowed out
It’ll be fine, right here with you

It’s sometimes a distant hope
Probably trying to grasp unreasonably
Laboring with my hands, gradually
It’s diminishing
If you become more aware in a small love
Rather than a big one

A great love forms
Someday when the flowers are blooming
In order to sing, In order to play
The two of us will be close

Can you hear the Song of Love
It’s a small love
In order to smile, it seems we’re drawn close
By your kind voice
Time flows, dreams flow
They change various shapes
It’ll be fine, right here with you
I’ll laugh, right here with you

listen to the song before you leave~ (:

2008-12-02T02:34:00.002+08:00

*YAWN*
HOHOHOHO~
hey people have you tried watching 3 movies
straight in one day??
I did.. xDDD
I managed to finished the movies i downloaded
before the exams.
Well i still have 1 left though.. or is it 2..
hmmm... i don't remember..
but anyway i watched 3 movies straight on fri.
wacthed "Devil wears Prada", "National Treasure: Book of secrets"
and "Get Smart's Bruce and Loyld out of control"
the last one shouldn't be counted as a movie and it is a total waste of time
my sister download the wrong thing..

and i have totally forgotten what i have done on sat..
so never mind dun have to strain my brain thinking
started watching 不良校花 on sunday.
and finished until episode 5.
continued episode 6, 7,8.
i am going to continue 9 onwards tomorrow..
okay i crapped alot in this post.
well never mind anyway i dun think there will be
anyone reading blog anyway...
okay done with the crapping i am going to bed.
BYE BYE~

2008-11-16T01:06:00.002+08:00

HELLOO~
well i here again!
was last minute called to go to work
so i went working as told
stood there at BHG tampines
did nothing customers came but didnt buy anything
so its pathetic 0 sales
stood there from 4-10
a few customers tried the perfume
but didnt buy
some tried the sexy girl hand cream
but oso didnt buy. hiaz.
ke lian.. i dunno what to say
i heard from the promoter next to us
she said that our sales is oso kosong yesterday
but well we just started to have the shelves
so things may get better when time comes
but its really pathetic to get 0 sale on a sat
SATURDAY leh! weekend leh
aiyo~ i am speechless and helpless.

2008-11-14T18:39:00.003+08:00

HI people!
i am back to blog.
I have been real busy these days
cause i started to work and my time
is from early in the morning till i finish my visitings
so i will be running around singapore for the next 2 weeks
and you know what the job may seem easy
but its very tiring.
But the good thing is that i can go home after
i finish my visitings.

okay what happened on the past 2 weeks is that
i finished my 'O' level mother tongue exam
i got a job, i went to the class chalet and i went to the grad night
class chalet was fun i get to eat and stuff like that
but didnt stay overnight though cos
on the first night my aunt came back
and the 2nd night i got work the next day so oso cannot

then prom, went to vivian's house to prepare
reached there at 1 eat and slack a little
and cass and mabel came with cass's mama
then got vernon to straighten my hair
and i did my make-up first before i started doing
cass's and mabel's make-up
had fun while putting their make-up
and i seriously love to put make-up on cassini
cos she is pretty in the first place and i made her prettier
with the make up.
after all the preparations we cab down to the hotel
we saw many very gorgeous ladies.
everyone looked very beautiful there
had fun there, cass and mabel enjoyed their fullest
on the dance floor. and the PK and PQ are people who you wun expect.
After the event ended,
went to party world to sing with their friends
had fun till morning we all went home at 5+
i reached home at 6:30
finish washing my face and i slept at 7 woke up at 3.
i took leave for today so i do not need to work! :D

okay i am done here.
i will post the pics when i got them but it will be little though
so i am off
BYE BYE~ (:

2008-11-01T23:58:00.003+08:00

HEY people! I am back!!!
okay nothing much today actually
just went out to study with cass and Michelle
at kallang leisure park
in case you are wondering why i am still
studying even though i had finish my 'N's
that is because i am having my 'O' level chinese
on wed in other words i am not really done with
my exams yet.
Poor thing right?
But for my future i am willing to sacrifice abit.
I am going to do my very best to free myself
from one subject next year.
& that will be if i get a distinction for it.

& i am suddenly so into Audrey Hepburn
she is soooo pretty! she is basically a classic beauty
i believed that she is a all time favourite.
okay and i will end with a few pictures of her so enjoy!
& BYE BYE~

2008-10-26T21:37:00.002+08:00

HOHOHOHOHOHO!
Christmas?? not yet
i am just simply BORED!!
& there is really nothing for me to do
no interesting shows
games i play are starting to make me feel bored cos i play too much
the girls are busy with exams so no one to go out with
no one to call to..
WAHHHHHHHHH!
I am bored!!!!

I have no idea whats happening to me recently
I sleep very late but i wake up very early
and i won't feel tired for the whole day.
In other words, i sleep very little but dun feel tired
Strange right?
& you know ppl say you will have no appetite when you feel stress
and eat rather well when you are more relaxed?
I am like the total opposite. cos aft the exams
i tend to skip meals cos i dun feel like eating
so almost everyday i eat 1 meal a day sometimes 2
and i eat little when i eat.

oh and i really do realise that i have grown fatter when i come back from london
the 5kg i gain there is really no joke.
i was looking through my pictures from sec1 to 3
i got 2 close ups one is my ic photo and another is the photo
i took before going london,
my face really looks rounder. its like
before i go to london, my face (somewhere near the jaws)
looks sharp but when i compare it with my ic photo,
my face is actually rounder!
When i have my meals there, the amount is like 3 times
as much as what i eat in singapore.

okay enough of the crapping!
if this post just made you will boring and lenghty,
then i hereby apologise cos i am just vending my boredom
so SORRY!!
okay i will stop...
lastly i just want to say I AM BOREDDDDDDD!!!!!
HEHEHEH! BYE BYE~ xDDD

2008-10-14T00:34:00.002+08:00

HEEEEELLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOO!!!
I am BACK~
It is been almost a week since my exams ended.
& I am starting to rot at home already
cause i got nothing to do
I am currently waiting for the reply of the jobs
I have applied. the reply is soooo freakin slow.

During my time waiting,
I stayed at home and did nothing.
Well not nothing actually,
i just watch a few dramas, read some comics and play computer games
basically i am just slacking..
I am BORED BORED!!!!!!
Anyone just suggest a few things to let me do.

I wanted this kind of life but sometimes
it can be boring as well.
okay i will just randomly write some things
I currently want to learn Japanese, photography,
how photoshop works, piano, ballet & ballroom dancing, waltz in particular.
Okay those are what i currently feel like learning
I know that i wont be able to learn ballet & ballroom dance
but i do enjoy watching it. (:
Piano? i have no money to learn
okay they are just no link i know
cause i am bored and i am not making sense in this post
enough of my nonsensical statements
i am off now..
So BYE BYE~
(: