I am BORED BORED BORED~
I cant study!!!!
there is this stupid stupid stupid dunno what thing downstairs
organised by the cc which is freakin noisy!!!!>.<
I wanted to do my homework
but due to that i cant and i really do not wish to do it tomorrow
cause there is a whole lot of tv programmes i want to watch
and i will not let anything get into my way
to stop me from watching them
so i will still have to finish them today somehow
I am now going to find a way to do my homework
whether is stuffing cotton buds or tissue paper in my ear
or digging out the earmuffs which i dunno where is it
I am so going to do my homework *jiayou*

I think i should run away once in awhile
I hate to do it but it now seem to be the only solution
I am too tired to face it
lying to myself is so much easier
than forcing myself to accept the truth...



19:39;

Today...
got 'N' level MT oral
and i stammered which is horrible
then the conversation worse i like out of point like that
i think i did better in the 'O' level oral
i have been mooody for the whole day
but i laugh at times when things are really funny
i dunno why i am soo mooody and soooo tired
something is wearing me out i dunno what
i just dun feel very good...
Maybe i will get better tomorrow...

i have now lost the person i can confide to...



20:32;

I am now Freshhhh and cleannnn
hahahaha cause i just finish bathing (:
thinking of why i bath so late?
of course its because i went out just now
and just came back not long ago
okay.. i know i am mad
i am just not myself
bei mo yang dong xi ci ji dao
so currently i am alittle siao siao one
just dont mind me i will be better in awhile hopefully?
okay let see what happened today

went to school as usual
but today we are suppose to have PE
but due to the survey and stuff,
our PE is CANCELLED!!!!
well, i am happy though cause i dont really feel like having PE
and i was feeling rather down too today
okay then same skipped recess
then MT there is only 1 period today
its too short for me to sleep
so i stayed awake then listen to all the crap mr fun is saying
then assembly!!
there is this Q&A thing for racial Harmony
then community singing
& I saw my choir Juniors on stage!!!!
but as usual they are still very very soft.. *shake head*
Jia You juniors you can do it!!!
after school slack in the classroom for abit
and i teach Peng chinese and he is sososo weak in that okay
even sean is better btw sean is taking CLB
this shows how weak peng is in his MT
then went home after returning the class dairy

went out again at around 5
to meet cass and mabel for movie
went to watch The Dark Knight
and its sososo nice okay
its a great movie.. i like batman and joker
this is the first time i think that this villain is really a villain
the actor how acted as the joker, Heath Ledger
presented the character very well
which sort of became the main focus of the movie
but unfortunately he died shortly after filming this movie
he died from drug overdose, he is only 28
i better not talk too much about the movie
if not it wont be exciting for people who are going to watch it
okay well i am going to stop here
so BYE BYE ~
& subway cookies are very nice


23:09;

okies i am back
got alot of test this few days
Tuesday got POA
Wednesday got Physics
then today got chemistry
but i dun think i should be complaining
cause this is what people usually get
when important exams are coming
so i will have to learn to accept the fate
cause i will be busier next year
many things have been happening lately
and i really dunno what to do
still the same old sentence
Life's Difficult
well i think its too short to be a sentence
it should be a phrase yeah?
okay i think i will just end here
and i am off to watch TV!!!!

I am tired..
simply too tired..
Will I still be able to hold up the smile?





20:58;

Back to updates~
but due to the amount of things that happened in school
it will be tooo much for me to name them out.
so in order to make it short
i will be skipping days,
plus i dont think that anyone would
be interested in such a lenghty entry
so let me start..

7 July 2008, Monday
went for the class outing
but i dun think it should be
called as a class outing?
cause only a little of us went
so went to look for Mummy
and waited for 30 mins downstairs
then met up with yong ding and kevin
went inter to meet ze hui and teddy
catch HANCOCK at e!hub
and the show made me feel very sick
cause the camera kept shaking
but the show was nice though (:
all the flying, banging, catching
was suppose to find cass they all at far east
but ended up not going for some reasons
went to play pool instead with the rest
and stayed there for awhile and left
to meet cass they all for dinner
but i ended up not having dinner
and went home after meeting them

10th July 2008, thursday
today my teacher changed our seats
i still remained in the same seat
but people around me shifted
and of course that includes the one sitting beside me
so i got a new partner..
well nvmd lets not talk about that
i missed Numbers to watch America's Next Top Model (ANTM)!!
and its worth it of course
but today is the recap of pervious ep
its funny though xD
and i am sooo interested with one of the judges
Twiggy!! She is a fashion icon
she even have her products like
Twiggy Dolls ( something like Barbie Dolls, just that it has smaller bust and hips),
Twiggy Cosmetics, she even have her own line of clothing
and i love her eyes they were so beautiful

nothing much happened today so i am going to skip that too
and thats it i am going to stop here so
BYE BYE~


22:30;

okay i am back to updating my blog xD
today is Be Yourself Day
so alot of people wear their home clothes to school
but i didnt cause i got PE and oral aft school
so if wear i will have to change
2 times which i can say
its just troublesome
and oral i am like so ke lian can
got 2 orals on consective days >.<
had my "N" level english oral yesterday
&"O" level mother tonuge today
when i had oral i was like so nervous la
then i was stammering
when i was reading the passage
conversation for MT was okay though
cause i can relate myself to the question...
didnt had PE today cause Mr Wong go reservice
and the teacher who is suppose to
take us as relief wasnt here
so we slacked in class for 2 periods
then got concert for youth day
the people singing was not bad except
for some and that is the first time
i realise our school had a person
who can sing like a black..

about the past few days..
hmmm... i wont say that its okay
cause it wasn't really okay
finally broke down on wednesday
i was like enduring all the pain lah
but i cannot take it anymore
and broke down eventually
cried alot yesterday
i was really really hurt
i have no idea why
but my heart just hurt
its painful..

Thanks girls your care really helped alot
and i really need you all that time
if you all weren't there
I really wouldnt know what to do...
Vivian thank you for the chocolate it helped(:
& Cassini thank you for your shoulder and listening to me(:
& Mabel thank you for the sms it helped too(:
& Hwee San thank you for your concern(:
& Michelle thank you for being just there(:
& Mummy sorry to have made you worried...
Thanks alot(:
& sorry to have made you guys worried...

why does it hurt so much?
Its been so long already...
why does it still hurts so much?
what should i do?
why is it like that?
i thought i have given up long ago...
I want to be strong but..
Can I do it?...



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