I am here for the sake of updating and complaining
The mood now is negative.
I am SOOOOOOOO tired lately.
I hate it.

Well, time flies, one moment i am still
wasting time during the December holidays,
but the next i am sitting for my MT listening exam tomorrow.
STUPID.

I hate to admit but i am really slacking off.
Its like at home mum asking me not to stress up too much,
but in school the teacher is telling us to wake up its time for exam.
SERIOUSLY speaking , I am so not prepared to take the exam.
I cannot get that stupid vectors right, never understood
what my POA teacher is talking about,
& I can never keep myself awake for lessons in school.

I know that sleeping/dozing off in class is my problem
and it has always been.
I just cant help it no matter how long i sleep, i just feel tired.
Trust me i tried every single way to keep myself awake.
My system is immune to caffeine so coffee and tea doesn't work,
drinking water helps a little but doesn't last long,
taking meds they simply don't work, cod's liver fish oil doesn't work as it seems to be.
My friend check on me very frequently just in case i doze off.
I kept forgetting things like date, homework, test.
Nothing gets inside.

Maybe my studies isn't as bad as i think it is.
But its just the thing up there.
Maybe i think too much, maybe i have too many free time for my mind to wander off.
I was taught not to blame things on others because if anything goes wrong
it must be something i did that is wrong that leads to that.

School is tiring, its a madness, its a war.
you wear a heavy armor to school and still cant take it off at home.
War with the books, the papers, the people, the teachers, the not dozing off, everything.

Okay enough of the complaining.
I have to get back to my studies, even though i can't do it at home.
Have to its common test tomorrow.
So i will end my whining here, hopefully the mood will be better the next time i post.

PS: I just realised that its been a month since i last posted.


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