HOHOHOHO~
I am back.
Today alot of things happened.
1st: I got no money to take bus to school
2nd: only got $3 for the whole day
3rd: i forgot that i have to clear my table by monday
4th:mid- year MT oral, totally flunk it.
5th:my bag is SUPER HEAVY because of the books
6th: went to eat with friends but no money take bus paid $1 for the bus fare
7th: have to let people treat me for lunch
8th: my sister just reminded me that i owe her $120
9th: I am totally BROKE!!
okay isn't my life just pathetic??

got night study programme for the past 3 days
i only got home at 9.30><
had fun but its not helping my studies at all.
cause all we did is talk, sing, disturb people and make new friends.

then went to buy books today with my sister
went to find her after her work
bought 7 books and i am crazy about those books right now.
i want to read them!!!
My books can only be found at Kinokuniya
so we went to the one in Liang's court.
reached home at 10
and now i am trying to finish my homework.
so say good luck to me(:

私はあなたを憎みます、しかしそれでも私はあなたを愛します
あなたは知っているか？


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Hey people!
I am Back~
okay i am a little emotional these days
and i have serious mood swing recently too
so i went to play my collection of instrumental music
and i still love YIRUMA the best!!! ><

He is the best pianist i have seen so far
he play really beautiful piano pieces
So soft, so clam, so touching, so BEAUTIFUL!
okay i really need to clam myself down
and i really hate to be emotional.

These days i started thinking.
If i have to lose one of my ability, what would it be?
Voice, sight, hearing?
I've got myself an answer.
I would rather be mute than anything else.
But then i got another question coming.
If i lose my ability to talk, then i wouldn't be able to sing?
If i can't sing then whats the point?
But sometimes if i can choose to temporarily lose one of the 5,
it would be good.

If i lose my sight, I would be able to not see what i don't want to see
but i would not be able to see what i want.
If i lose my hearing, I would be able to not hear what i don't what to,
but i will not be able to listen to my favorite music.
If i lose my ability to speak, i won't have to say unnecessary things
and make others unhappy, but i won't be able to sing.
Sometimes i envy those who are a little silly.
because they don't know whats going on around them, they are happy.
sometimes i want to run.
Run away from this world this ugly, pitiful world.
I wonder how nice it would be if there is nothing but happiness in the world.
How nice would it be?

My heart hurts because of you.


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