无奈。
很无奈，非常的无奈。
感情，世人必有的
习惯，每个人都有
可当两者遇到时，这个人就完蛋了。

因为曾经太伤心，习惯了
所以现在好像感觉不到了

是这样吗？所以现在我只是坦然面对？
就像本来应该觉得心痛，想哭。
可是却一点这样的感觉都没有。
只有无奈。好像也只剩下无奈。





02:42;

I just realized that if he really likes me, he would be texting me, checking up on me when I post upsetting status, calling me, chatting happily with me about anything, waking me up with morning calls, putting me to sleep with a sweet goodnight, caring if I had my proper meals, why am i losing appetite, asking me how's my day, sharing with me about his day, or what's been bothering him recently, wanting me to care, be jealous when I'm texting other guys. & he would have hold my hand that day.


02:20;

I guess its just me, feeling everything.


21:45;

I seriously don't understand wth is wrong, the way you speak of it sounds like its our fault, but its you who started it. You said you tried, yes we know. But have you even ever gave a thought that why we reacted the way we react? I am someone who treasures all my friends, i value them. because i know friends don't come easy for me.
you broke the bond,  the material of this bond is not something, you say you've tried and tries to save it, and you can get it back together. no matter what you do the line is there, the fact that you hurt us won't change, and there is nothing that can change. people say, the higher you expect, the greater you fall. its the same for friendship, because you was so important, that when you did what you did, we were greatly hurt.
You once said that we think alike, but why cant you understand?
I value and cherish my friends. If i can go back to how it was then you should know that you are not important at all.
You say we don't give a fk about it, and we didn't say or talk about it, its not that we don't want to. Its because we DON'T KNOW how to. It maybe be easy for you to do all the damage and then come back and pretend nothing happened, but we can't. We can't at all.  I thought you could understand, but apparently you can't.

Now i feel like this all started because of me. if it wasn't for me, you wouldn't have made friends with my friends, you wouldn't have cared, you wouldn't have done what you did. None of this would have happened. None of us would have gotten hurt, because it didn't started.


02:16;