I cheer out loud, so i can lose my voice and forget about crying.


02:59;

我现在只想大哭一场。


01:39;

I'm sorry. You've always been a friend to me.
There is no way i will ever have any romantic feelings for you.
You say you wouldn't mind, and enjoy liking me, because I'm able to make your day just by smiling.
I'm glad to know but at the same time it pressures me.
I fear that if one day, i broke your heart, or maybe I already did. It will never be back to the way it is like what happened to me.
I fear that you wouldn't be able to love again like I do.
I fear that what if one day I can no longer smile and make your day because my heart is broken once again with you being part of the reason.
I fear that if i were to see you i have to run away and avoid you no matter what happens.
Please don't say you love me. Let me be selfish for once. Just this once.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry to have been liking you on my own.
You have no idea how many times i have tried to tell you that i like you.
You have no idea how many times  have tried to tell myself to stop there.
You have no idea how many times I tried to stop stealing glances at you because I know you would immediately turn away when our eyes met.
You have no idea how many times I've tried to talk to you but the conversation never last.
You have no idea how many crazy and stupid things I've done just to let you notice me.
You have no idea how many times the inner me have been resisting the thoughts of you.
You have no idea how painful my heart is when you do that.
You have no idea...
because I didn't tell you


02:39;