Hey people!
I am Back~
okay i am a little emotional these days
and i have serious mood swing recently too
so i went to play my collection of instrumental music
and i still love YIRUMA the best!!! ><

He is the best pianist i have seen so far
he play really beautiful piano pieces
So soft, so clam, so touching, so BEAUTIFUL!
okay i really need to clam myself down
and i really hate to be emotional.

These days i started thinking.
If i have to lose one of my ability, what would it be?
Voice, sight, hearing?
I've got myself an answer.
I would rather be mute than anything else.
But then i got another question coming.
If i lose my ability to talk, then i wouldn't be able to sing?
If i can't sing then whats the point?
But sometimes if i can choose to temporarily lose one of the 5,
it would be good.

If i lose my sight, I would be able to not see what i don't want to see
but i would not be able to see what i want.
If i lose my hearing, I would be able to not hear what i don't what to,
but i will not be able to listen to my favorite music.
If i lose my ability to speak, i won't have to say unnecessary things
and make others unhappy, but i won't be able to sing.
Sometimes i envy those who are a little silly.
because they don't know whats going on around them, they are happy.
sometimes i want to run.
Run away from this world this ugly, pitiful world.
I wonder how nice it would be if there is nothing but happiness in the world.
How nice would it be?

My heart hurts because of you.


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